I have started a blog. Not because I think I will be the next great blogger of the century or the year or the best one you will read today (if anyone reads it) but because I am a writer. For as long as I can remember I was scribbling in journals that are now collecting dust somewhere and while I haven't done it in a really long time, writing helps me process -my thoughts, my feelings and my emotions. I can write lots of things, I might not could ever say to anyone. I was going to start this without any ties or references to me, my kids by name or with pictures, but I have changed my mind. First because it is just too hard to write about my life without saying Clara or Sam Henry or even SH or JZ and secondly because what good does it do me if I am not really real, and lastly my kids are cute. Vulnerability is not my strong suit but something I am realizing is so freeing. So here I am - I am a 40ish mother of two small adorable children, who struggles with anxiety and depression (I know I won the jackpot -couldn't just have one), I have a husband who continues to adore me -even though I know I sometimes make his life difficult (and who does all the cooking yay me bc my kids would be living off chicken nuggets and mac-n-cheese right now), I am a Christ follower who struggles because she wants God to just lift this burden but who also knows He has a grand plan for me. I really do like to laugh and have fun and some of that is missing for me right now and I hope through this journey, I am able to share some of the humorous side of life. I used to tell funny stories and make people laugh - I miss that... maybe through writing it will come back.